In John 13:7 Jesus says " You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand."
These are powerful words to a person like me. I try to understand EVERYTHING and find any significance to be lead by that. I have to know the whole picture and plan like my whole future out. With everything change, I just revise and develop a new 10 step plan. Well, God has decided to teach me a lesson in trusting Him at a whole new level. I trust Him with my life and I once claimed to trust Him with everything. But I have realized that I tend to have a control problem when it comes to the plans I made for my own life. I had a dream to be successful in the "Finance World" and to have a great career. But to be honest, it is right here at my fingertips and I don't know if it's where I will head. Although I don't forget the hard work it took to get here, it seems too easy. I did it on my own and a passion is growing in me to have a God-sized dream, something much bigger than myself.
I am now at a fork in the road as the saying goes. Even though this situation tears me down at times, I now I am being prepared for something BIG. That makes it all worth it. This lesson will not be forgotten because it is molding me and changing me drastically.
God told me, "You have to trust that I know what I'm doing." Perfect words to get me through this. Because how foolish would it be if I didn't. I don't realize it now, but later I will understand!
